There is a light that never goes out

If only it were known

that there is always one thing that makes me happy. even in my darkest moments, even when im sitting in front of my computer with eyes glassy partly from exhaustion and partly cuz i might cry, theres one thing that always makes me happy. its a little spark, its a light that always shines, it fades a little, sometimes it grows stronger but its always there, its never gone completely. its nothing real, or tangible, its a thought, a wish maybe but i can see it perfectly and ive never been so sure of something. id gamble away a lot for it i guess. its so far off too but im so convinced its there for a reason. i dont know if it would become real but i know it will always be there for me even if noone else knows it. its literally a life of its own. noone would ever understand. ive disguised what it is so well. but one day maybe if im brave enough or if i get the chance, i'll let it out. maybe i'll slip up. maybe one day someone will finally figure out the puzzles i've been speaking in all this time. and when they do, maybe we'll meet and make it happen.

THE STAR:

"Whenever all hope seems lost, it will reappear to prove that you have really lost nothing except perhaps your sight to the enlightenment. And in the absence of that sight, the Star will light your way. It's light is not a blinding flash like lightning bolt of the Tower, but a soft radiating glow that warms and comforts rather than burning and destroying. When it appears in your life , it is nothing less than a beacon of hope and inspiration. In times of darkness it shows that there is a way out, and tells you not to worry, for illumination and freedom are at hand. But hope is only a beginning. Now that you have been inspired, you still have much work to do in order to bring your vision into manifestation. You must combine the solidity of material existence with the waters of your emotions and of your spirit... Kick off your shoes and wade into the pool, confident that the water will support you until you reach the other side.