what do i have to do?

do i need to paint my face and flail my limbs? start a hoax? shave my head? what will it take?

WAX LYRICAL/RELEASING

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE LOOK LIKE SHIT EVN THO THEY MAD INTELLIGENT. NOTHIN WORSE THAN A CRAPPY MOHAWK WITH-GOATEE AND GOOD TASTE. WHATCHU THINKIN??

ONE BIG BAD ONION

spazz: oh brocky, ive gone and done it again

brocks; whats dat?

spazz: i ate a bad onion and now i cant seem to leave the bathroom except to inform you on the progress of my condition and the flames surrounding my crack. buttcrack that is.

brocks: now spazz, you know thats awful vulgar of you. what would the other people here think?!

spazz: they would feel sorry.

brocks: i think they would be disgusted.

spazz: noone has any compassion anymore. noone.

brocks: Good god spazz! what are you getting at? dont get emotional on me! how odd. i never saw you as an emotional person. whats wrong with you?!

("every rose has its thorn" starts playing softly in the background)


spazz: i think i have to go.

brocks; bathroom?

spazz: no. just leave.

brocks: take wattie's pet iguana with you. the streets are wet and dark and no place for an unescorted young woman with a timebomb for a butt. i meant that in two ways. lil joke there, heh.

spazz; i dont need ignacio (the iguana), i can take care of myself for the time being. but you just wait. i will be dependent on something soon. you know i have weak moments; eventually someones gonna have to help me. just gonna have to ask i guess.

brocks: do it soon. before you hit rock bottom.

spazz is quiet.

spazz: well aren't you honest?

you leave me here in the shada-lala

when time passes even some of the ugliest things can look good again in retrospect. at the same time the complete opposite can happen and things might become even uglier. ask yourself why did i pull 4 of pentacles/knight of swords broo-haha? does it even matter anymore?the trick to letting go of old grudges is to make new ones. suddenly that last pissstain dont look so bad! and thats because theres fresh piss all over my slacks and its really uncomfortable and you ought to be punished!

but a pissstain is a pisstain that is, unless it is a shitstain and those do not come out as easily, if ever even. how many shits have people taken on you?

stop being a baby!

reach for the stars, get high, real high... but keep a reality check. fantasy and reality must be kept separate... or else. i got high, real high and then i forgot i had to come back down again.

photo from the 'double dutch' video i believe

good song. never lets ya down

all i do is sicko

this actually happened yesterday (not the exact lines at all, but similar situation)


wattie: (off in the distance) "seems like he's having fun"

spazz says nothing.

wattie: (says something spazz cant understand)

spazz just smiles and doesnt ask what.



Spazz: Just spent my sobriety on more than likely, Miller Hi-life. what do i do?

Wattie: I'm an alky! you think you can even ask me this question?? i bet your pubes aren't even red!

Spazz: Happy st patricks day, Wattie

Wattie: So much crazed NYC anger. All unavoidable and un-understandable anger. you need a salt and pepper recovery. you know what the means? it means getting back to the basics. I just wanna listen to the beatles and go to bed. Goodnight... Help! ... help me. I will help you help me.