R.I.P ari up

sing me to sleep
sing me to sleep
I'm tired and i want to go to bed

sing me to sleep
sing me to sleep
and then leave me alone
don't try to wake me up in the morning
'cause i will be gone
i want you to know
deep in the cell of my heart
i will feel so glad to go

sing me to sleep
sing me to sleep
i don't want to wake up on my own anymore

sing to me
sing to me
i dont want to wake up
on my own anymore

don't feel bad for me
i want you to know
deep in the cell of my heart
i really want to go

there is another world
there is a better world
well, there must be
well, there must be
well, there must be
well, there must be
well..

bye bye
bye bye
bye..





this hurts in particular for more personal reasons. Ana and I had the privlege of seeing Ari a few months ago at an art show/band show. she seemed absolutely wonderful. i had seen her around the city before so i knew she lived in NY. i remember ana and i were too chicken to go up to her and explain her influence on our lives in high school (my first screen name was Instant hit!based off a Slits song!!). at the time i clearly remember thinking "well we didnt go up to her tonight but theres always next time!"...

ugh.

6 weeksish til my birthday

22222222222222222222222222222222222222222. i will live to be 222. believe it.


the best way to remain emotionally distant?read your bible every day. everyone is meant for one.there is one meant for everyone. mine is written by some chick name Rachel. shes not that hot but whatever, shes the smartest girl i know. old and shit. experienced and shit.more threesomes than youve ever been in i bet. she knows whats up. she can make Borsch. i spelt it wrong. its ok.

im wearing these big motherfuckin fleece socks so thick they look like shit-boots. theyre neon too. i cant wait for winter so i can caress my future lovers face with my neon fleece toes. these socks aint comin off.

do you even? have you ever??

have you ever danced to Christ on tape? if not, do so sometime. youll have fun


have you ever read descriptions about myself? here, listen; (im a boy apparently)

"He is a prince of the other world on his travels through this one- all amidst the morning glory, in the keen air.... He is the spirit in search of experience."

and for my foes?

"Ruin. In the divine world, the punishment of pride; in the intellectual world, the downfall of the spirit that attempts to discover the mysteries of God; In the physical world, reversals of fortune. Material forces that can crush great and small alike. Rivalries which only end in ruin for all concerned. Frustrated plans, hopes that fade away, ruined ambitions and catastrophic deaths."

oh my.