i am the son, i am the heir

where to begin? ive lost my inspiration so now ive got to look for it. i search so hard but its nowhere. youd think living in new york is inspiring and it is in a way. but its all the same. so fast so stupid

im getting a phone call as we speak probably some dude asking me to come down to da club with him and taste a four loko. or taste his four loko, im not sure, im not so psychic anymore. i cut down on the tarot; i had to. but i will be doing them again at the halloween party at sterlings! come by. i will tell your fortune. it will be beautiful.

i got 2 interviews coming up honey. honey when i get money i will become creative again. hey, just cuz i dont write herre often dont mean i ever stopped lovin you. it just means ive said what i needed to say. thats all babe. thats all. love ya til johnny rotten croaks. love u all.

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oh im clever. and apparently this shit is private i guess. oh well. i guess it lacks color and isnt pleasing to the eye. blah. to hell with everyone. i think everyone ditched me in advance - Lisa Simpson

the cool calm

after the thrill of escaping a bunch of cops. i deserved to be arrested for so many reasons. yet i escaped. amazing. darling. im so good and cool even though i stink of cheap chicken. i dont smell like i cheated anyone though. only the man who deserved to be cheated. i could have done worse tonight; i was prepared to do worse.geez. i surprise myself. a beer to drink tomorrow. and no real reason how i got it! oh  how do tjhese things happen?

 someone made fun of my weight tonight. itt was a boy too. im not surprised, its 538 johnson, the hipster/crustpunk ny building. i walked by him and he said, "..and yet im STILL not skinny enough arghhh!", his little dreadlocked hungry friends laughed with jealousy. they dont know the truth.the fact that im Jughead and eat a lot. theyre jealous of the animals in my body. theyre sad that only apple leafs are present in their bloodstream while alligators lurk in mine; i get it you dirties; you wanna be me. youre just ashamed of less skin, less weight. its cool, i can deal, the littler the weight, the closer to my bonez n heart. im so weak and coold its sad and endearing. if you love me, you give me nutrients :)

Bullshit!

currently listening to

mark stewart and blink 182. nothing wrong with underground electro and mainstream pop punk. no not at all.

Mark stewart is out of control. i often forget this

The Devil

"If you think darkness has won, it has. If you are willing to let others exploit and restrain you, then they can and they will. But noone has power over you unless you give it away. If you are willing to release yourself from the chains of ignorance, you can do so, and you can step into the light. Turn all that negative energy into positive energy and see how much you can accomplish when you believe you can. Take a good long look at yourself and try to see what you could not see before. Always remember that shadow cannot exist without light and that there is no Devil except the one you create."